Toxic
Hello there Readers!
Have you ever had a friend who you get along with at first, but then as the days passed you start discovering their true-self. What you discovered in them was something that just brings a negative vibe to you. As you got to know them, you know that the person is not really all bad but just their mentality and attitude that sometimes just get under your nerves.
I value friends a lot. I value them so much that I tend to care more about them than they do to me. I care so much that I stick around even if that person is a parasite. They may not stick to you cause of the benefit they can get but just because you are there, available to accompany them along the journey and ease the way. They become your friend maybe because you are the first person they meet during college orientation day, so they do not want to be all alone throughout the first week.
You accompany them, you see their vulnerable side, and you try your hardest to lift them back up when they are down. You try being a good friend by supporting them when they are doing a presentation. You comfort them when their boyfriend cheated on them. You try to motivate them when their ex-boyfriend insult them online. Unfortunately, they don't see what you do to them...they don't realise the good things you do. What hurts is that they turn out to be toxic too that contaminate the air you breathe. They see you in whole different perspective and misunderstood your act of caring into somehow judgmental, nosy, bossy, their-second-mother-wanna-be act. They see you as a bad person. They lash out on you every time you give them advise. They lash out on you because their thoughts are full of themselves and never took time to comprehend what you are trying to say. They appreciate you less and lesser then focus their attention on others who hasn't see their toxic side.
You end up being suffocated with all the negativity and the toxic they brought. However, even thought the air is polluted there's this feeling you have inside that gives you hope that maybe...just maybe, you are able to decontaminate the air from the toxic. You value your friendship because you know that that person is actually nice but its just their immaturity in their mentality and their their attitude that seems to be the problem. However, you will eventually get tired when you see no progress in the changing.
I am tired, exhausted and in need of a fresh air to breathe and now I realise the only way for me to breathe is to let you go...and distance myself from you.
PS. Have you been in this situation? or perhaps something similar? If you do, how do you deal with them? Let me know in the comments below. I love listening to others' story and get a little insight on what they went through.
-Luminary Skylar
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